Highschool Drama...it can't even compete with Musical Drama.

So, adults think back to highschool, teens think back to, well, yesterday. The good ol' days of highschool. Right. That's a HUGE lie. First of all, the drama in highschool doesn't end once you graduate. I know this simply by listening in on conversations teachers have when they think my friends and I are focused on something else. Secondly, the regular highschool drama is nowhere near as complicated as the drama once musical season starts.

Oh yeah, I'm a music geek. By far. The musical is pretty much my life. I love it, but I'm sort of shy. Also, it brings out the worst in people. Some of my closest friends end up looking like self-centered brats, even though before auditions start and after the show ends, we're all the best of friends. Pathetic, right? I ask, "Why can't we just be friendly all year round?". Oh boy, do I ever sound so stupid. 

I just had to say that.

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"Haven't you heard the word of my wanting?" -Spring Awakening

Wow. That's really about all I can even say at this point. So much has happened since I've last blogged. It's actually quite ridiculous. Yes, I still like Spencer. Yes, I still have many problems with my best friend. But I've started liking someone else, too. Because most of the awesome conversations between Spencer and I happen outside of school, it's hard to remember how many good conversations we do have. It's even harder when other people have flirty cute conversations with me, too. A) I'm not used to it. I'm very doubtful that either one of the boys like me, but I'm attempting to keep my head high and think positively. B) They both have a tendency to piss me off, so I'm not sure which one I really like and which one is better off as just a friend.

But lucky me, fate brought me what I was dreading. In english, we always get randomly assigned seats. The past few times, I've been lucky enough to not be placed in the awkward place of sitting at the same table as Spencer, but to instead be in viewing distance so I know when he looked at me. Which was quite often. But today, new seats. And I got the pleasure of sitting right next to Spencer. The worst part is that the girl who he likes for sure (since I'm not sure if he likes me, too, but his friends say that he does like Elizabeth a litte) sits across from me. All she does is use him. GAH.