Where do we stand now?

I'm willing to bet that every one of you have a best friend. I have a best friend. You all know her as Marj. She's got this asshole boyfriend who just talks a bunch of shit about me, she never stands up for me. Recently, she told me to not worry about her problems; that she can solve them on her own. I backed off, of course, but then she started trying to tell me things about how the guy I like (Spencer) is an asshole. She kept telling me about other guys, better guys according to her, and about how they like me. She wanted me to give them a chance. I know she thought she was being helpful. She couldn't see that with every name she gave me I just threw it away. I didn't want them; I listened and I wasn't hooked on Spencer. I'm just looking for something certain, and Spencer's the only one who so far has it. Sure, those other guys are nice, good looking and they like me. I just can't; I'm unable to. Literally.
I got in a HUGE fight with Marj last night. I just wanted to explain this to her; that's all. I didn't want to lose her and I didn't want to push her away. I didn't want to be a bitch. I tried not to, I'm pretty sure I wasn't. But she kept saying it. I guess her boyfriend told her to stand up to me, but she wouldn't even tell me what I'd done. How am I supposed to fix something that I supposedly caused if no one will explain it to me?
I don't know if she did it on purpose, but she said something that stung the worst. Something that when you say it, you might as well just stab me. I hadn't cried that whole time until she said it, and when she found I was crying, she didn't care. She said, "Boo Hoo, I made you cry. Oh noo! Well you made me cry for a week."
But again, she wouldn't tell me what I'd done.

Then she said that she was so wrapped up into her own problems that she didn't notice mine. So I said, well I was so wrapped in mine that I didn't notice yours, I guess.
And she said that I should have dealt with my own and hers, but she only had to deal with her own. I don't know if she realized that's what she had said, so I tried to make her see. I begged her to calm down for a moment to try to understand what we BOTH were saying. But she didn't. So I said I'm sorry, I love you. I'm done. And I left.